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Mother Superior
An ethically harvested,mummified mouse head holds a natural Amethyst between it's teeth,surrounded by moss in an antique style curio dome

Dome measures roughly 2 inches in length,including a copper chain ending with a hook/eye clasp

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Forget Me Not
An adorable curio featuring an ethically harvest mouse paw,surrounded by freshly sprouted Forget-me-not's and a moss setting.

Bottle measures roughly 1.5 inches in length,and comes with a brass colored chain with a lobstr clasp end.

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Goodnight, Fair Lady
An absolutely gorgeous,antique style curio dome encasing an ethically harvested mouse skull with an internal crown of crystals,resting against a naturally dehydrated egg. 

Surrounded by moss,this piece is a guaranteed conversation starter! And works just as well as a simple display piece!

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Precious Cargo
The incredibly lovely package I received from one of the people I look up to the most, Clarissa(known as Wolftea)


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Jessica Marina Rae John
Artist | Hobbyist | Artisan Crafts
United States
I am the Mother of Deer.
I am the Saint of Cats.I am the keeper of Hyenas
and the Respectable Holder of Wolves.
At Basic.

They told me I had cancer.
The next week,they took me to one of the Financial buildings.

I didn't understand why.No one explained anything to me.
I just followed along like a confused,lost puppy.

They sat me in a room with a young man.Olive skinned,trimmed beard,and slicked back hair. He was strangely polite(Understand,we were never treated very well by anyone,so this was alien to me). He asked how I was,a concerned,fragile look on his face. At the time,I was severely depressed(can you blame me?).
I gave him an empty "I'm okay,how are you…"

He started bringing out piles and piles of paper with all of my information on it.

Long story short,this paperwork made it real to me.Nothing felt like a sadistic,twisted nightmare anymore.

I was to sign and agree with these people.

If I were to die,my family would get $500,000.
I were to choose who my most precious belongings to.
If I were to be buried or cremated.
etc etc.

I had to stop signing three times to go to the bathroom and take control of myself.
Luckily,this young man understood and was extremely patient.

The third time I came back,there was an older woman there.
She introduced herself as one of the main Medhold nurses that dealt with these "Type" of situations.
Confused,yet again.Wasn't it enough to make me believe I had cancer?

I could tell she was strict,but also sympathetic.

"I hate having to do this.I really do.But I know you wouldn't want me to sugarcoat it."

What? Sugarcoat what?
I was panicked. But I kept it all balled up.Keep control.Keep control.
Sweating, shaking,twitching,heavy breathing.

"The reason we're discharging you,is because -due to your bloodwork and test results- there is roughly an 80% of your body developing either Lymphoma,or Leukemia,by the age of 35."

There it is again.That feeling of some sick fantasy. Tunnel vision. Everything was drowned out. Muffled.

"With this information, it would be futile for you to be apart of the armed forces,with such a devastating disease approaching so quickly."

The rest I didn't listen to. I was numb.

Like a movie clip on repeat.All day. It's torture after a few hours.

But,I calm myself by thinking "It's all over now.You're safe".

Well,at least until I'm 35.
  • Listening to: Daughter-Landfill
  • Playing: Amnesia
  • Drinking: Water


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WereKatt Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2016
Hope you have a great birthday!
The-Fuzzy-Death Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2013
Great gallery!
YourMorbidNightmare Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2011
I loved looking through your gallery it was great! :D
fenrirofparadise Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2011  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you!!
OhIGotMusic Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2011
I loved your gallery. You are very gorgeous! :]
fenrirofparadise Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2011  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you! <3 <3 <3
OhIGotMusic Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2011
You're welcome, sweetheart. I added you to my deviantwatch, if you don't mind :)
alyssonsk8 Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2011
hi gilrl love ur galery !!!! "hug" "hug" "hug" "hug" "hug"
fenrirofparadise Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2011  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you!!!!!
alyssonsk8 Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2011
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